all or nothing

am I on a slow path to self-destruction?

or is that just another one of my many worries?

will this be a one-time opportunity that i will let go now and regret in future?

what is it that i want this day, in the present?

when can i ever stop harbouring that all-or-nothing sort of attitude towards work and decisions?

AND, WHY THE HELL AM I ASKING MYSELF SO MANY QUESTIONS!!?

well, heck!

i will hang on for a while more - until breaking point, before quitting.

...need better time management, need to stop spending so much time worrying;

a brainwash, and a more airheaded view on life? D:

::edit:: i guess not - breaking point will be too late, and everything would've gone downhill by then. saved my arse before everything crumbled, as much as i did not want to,and as much as i knew how good it will be and is. i guess this is what you'd call 'prioritizing'? :'}