man, do i have issues.
feeling really anti-social these days. D;
i cant seem to hold a decent conversation for more than 5 minutes.
i dont see the fun in msn/sms/talking anymore. :O:O:O
i guess my randomness' been clouded by the desperation
to do do do dooooooo more work. (which fyi, is superb-ly fun.)
competition is stifffffffff mannnnn.
without a doubt, i want to be one of the best.
i need to get into animation. D;
coming home everyday (most of the time at 8pmlol.)
to lock myself up in my room,
turn on the laptop, do research, read a couple of online fiction (i dont want my english ability to dissolve. D;),
think about and complete all my assignments.
i havent had time for anything else,(not even POA notes!) outings included.
(except when i need to make a trip down to artfriend or popular to get supplies.)
nevertheless, i've been feeling really productive.
it's the first time in my life i'm feeling this rush and enthusiasm to complete whatever i have on hand and even more! zfmgfomgoatsz
sure it's tiring at some point, not stress even, just pure exhaustion after a day's hard work.
DAMMMMMNNNN, it's a great feeling of satisfaction! :D
but on the other hand, the paranoia of making sure i hand up all my assignments on time and whatnot have made me really detached from the rest of my class.
i feel really bad. D;
when school started, i did hang out with them alot.
but at some point when the assignments begun pouring in,
i've been rushing home right after school.
i'm not sure if this is a good thing or not,
and i'm sorry for forsaking them over my work.
it's just that, i want to be better.
i dont want to be spending my life having too much fun if i wont be able to progress.
and heck, that is why i can't maintain friendships.
i always choose improvement over people.
so guys, i'm sorry if i seem to be getting further away from all of you.
it's unintentional but at the same time, im aware of what i'm doing.
contradictory,no? :\
i'll try to spend more time with you guys.
hard, but i'll TRY.
Gotta break away from that soloist mentality but at the same time, be able to produce the same quality of works or even better.
ohhhhhfawwuuuuskkkxthaaaatslikesooooo..gah.
aiiiiiiiight, adddddehhhhh out.
i can't believe i spent like, 25minutes doing this.
there's alot of work to be done. yeahhhh baby~ :D
P/S i detest that stupid charcoal and graphite removal assignment.
gotta complete it with my best nonetheless. ;{
OK BYE!
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