*insert super-emo sigh*
Dammit,i have no idea what i'm doing with my life anymore.
each and every day,i come home feeling so freakingly tired,
when i hadn't achieved anything in school at all.
My days are flying by like some retarded bullet train @406937609370468km x nothingness/day. oh thanks again zhang yan. (-_-;)
I don't do anything useful at all,
i get bored of games easily.
y'know, things just arent what they used to be anymore.
I keep telling myself i've gotta start revision,
coz..for tropical climate's sake..even the laziest people of the bunch are already doing it.
i feel like the ultimate slacking loser.
O's is just 7 months & 22 days away!
and i have done absolutely NADA.
My dreams seem to be slipping further away from my grasp.
And once again,i'm running away from tests and submissions.Jeah,truancy again.
Praise the stupidity in me! (:
i'm feeling like a lowdown airheaded moron. =/
My mum scolded me yet again,repeating for what must have been the 999999th time that:
1.i have bad friends.["who know if they go to school or not?!"]
2.she hates giving excuses/speaking to ms.leong ["you know,your teacher keeps calling me. and she complains bout your earstick;blouse;hair;homework;everything! Wo hen fan leh!"]
3.Iggy and I are useless or somewhat like that.["You and your brother are always giving me problems!Both also as lazy,always never do this and that then expect me to do it for you!it's not like i go out and have fun then come back and sleep."]
4.Insensitive comparisons["You know,my boss' friend's son..SO CLEVER! he got 7As for his O's.Then your cousin,amanda, she got 15 points and she still told me she regrets she didnt study.you see how good they are? you see your brother,he got 18! how to go anywhere?!"]
5.My 'precious lil computer' is the root of all evil. ["You come home everyday only know how to play com play games,never do anything else!never do homework or revise,you are going to fail!I keep hoping your com will spoil so you cant have anything to do with it."]
6.I;m not a good role model.pfffft like i wanna be one. ["as the top in your class,you keep absenting yourself,how to set good example for the rest?you told me that even if you dress badly,you can still study.but i think your studies getting from bad to worse.i feel so shameful."]
geeeez,she's more annoying than that bloody cabbage.
well,after the 999999th time,i couldnt take her fucking bullshit anymore,
[although some parts of it are true,i admit mahhhh flawsssszxz.]
so well.. i didnt just keep quiet. (: heehaw,it was fun.
everything just seems to revolve around her,huh?
i think she said more.. but well... i couldnt quite remember. sorreh.
But nevertheless,i know i have to do something bout my attitude.
and no,no thanks to you,mum.
you're just like a mosquito buzzing around my ear.
To prevent my 'bad' friends from being insulted more,
to really do something bout my homework and studies,
i've decided to play only 2 days a week.
9;00-11;30 on wednesdays,
and 8-11;30 on Sundays.
kinda impossible with the computer in my room,
so i'm getting iggy to keep the wireless router and powersupply cord hidden somewhere.
but you know.. i do need a life,so i'm going out at least once a week.prolly on sats. (:
lol,sadly,i know that by doing so i'm gonna lose alllllll my online friends,
but ya ya ya ya ya,the ones remaining.. haha.. shall be 1337z0rz!
argh, i feel sacrificial.but thaaaaaat's life.
oh,and i'm not smsing on mondays-thursdays. so yeah.
i'm gonna screw myself with books.
..maybe now i can get to watch some nice tv programmes. (:
so thats all for now,don't needta check back.
no more updates til further notice.lol.
and i have to keep my feelings at a distance too.for now.
so VIOLA! it's the enddddddddd.
forrrrrrrrrrr nowwwwwwwww.
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