7Months_Since then.
5M0nths_0f LIES.
2M0nths_0f DESPAIR.
-I'M FINEI'M FINEI'M FINE I'M FINE I'm FINE-
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -u're an unfriendly,expressionless bastard.
walked past me like i dont exist.
what happened to the guy who used to call me fucker?
sometimes i wonder if we would still be friends if not for Jeff.
yes,here i'm admitting why i hate jeff.
... becoz he ruined our friendship or even sth more.
would you have quit if he hadnt accused you.?
but i've been thinkin` . . .
was Jeff to blame?
myself, for not knowing how to maintain friendships..?
or you,for just forgetting me and casting me aside..?
coz he's not actually a bad guy in person.
it's really a wonder how you can gain friends in a game.
and lose your real life friends in return.
it's such a risky trade.
it really hurts.
i've lost my best friend ,wen jie since p6, becoz during the december hols 'o5,
i was too busy 'chiongin' maple and didnt contact him much.
sure,to him i still exist, but not much anymore.
he used to call me for every single thing,
be it girl problems or just to chat.
go out tgt alot,joke around.. etc..
but now, we seldom talk, even in msn.
although i've tried to mend the hole in our friendship by apologising,
and he said it didnt matter.
somehow,the hole still exists..and it's growing deeper and deeper as time goes by.
of coz, there were others . . like jun wei, gary. . who quitted.
maybe even cheryl and company becoz they're not interested in the game.
now even you. .
FUCK DOTA! you just had to quit maple to join dota.
i hate that fucking game.curse it!
many of my closest real life friends have quitted the game,
while i still stayed.
sometimes i wonder. . .
what would happen if i stopped with them..?
would i have met all these great people?
would i have been able to stop all my ruined friendships from happening?
why must i suck so much with friendships?
now that i've stopped mapling...
and i've already lost my real life friends..
would that mean i'm gonna lose my in game friends as well?
i really miss wen jie.
i miss all the good times..
all the memories...
and no, not in that way.
dont be fucked up,i'm tryin to be serious here.
he's my best friend.
that will never change.
i'll still be there if he needs me.
sigh. . . .
i hate my fucking screwed up life. :[
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